Sunday, October 29, 2006
princess birthday girl... events nung oct. 26... my actual birthday!!! hehe...
birthday? what birthday? trully it was nothing much...
actually to say it was nothing much is sort of an understatement... it was nothing...
well... who could i blame though? i celebrated my birthday three days before i actually should've... and now... ayun... some of my friends who were actually invited dun sa party forgot my birthday... not to mention my dad not greeting me... well... it was a sloppy day... much like any other day i'd have... haiii... anyway... 3 hours left before this day officialy ends.... and well un... hoping something could turn this day around....
3 like anyone actually cares? hehe...
nalunod ako sa orange juice... events nung bday celebration ko... oct 23
well that went well... i'm not saying that things couldn't have gone any better... but hey, atleast i've learned alot... i had so much fun and that's all that matters... i believe those who came enjoyed the party too...
speaking of those invited... i invited 42 people... 24 came and 15 of those who came slept over...
who came?
-guys-
bry, fids, bart, da, ferdie, timo, alfredo, wafu, marvin, mico, kris, joel
-girls-
car, mik, niki, kams, j9, kai, jemai, gret, val, lorie, janica, nyey
those in bold are the ones who slept over... -pantay pala ung number ng guys ng girls who came... hehe...- nyway... im glad that they were the ones who came and i believe it was better off that those who dint come didnt... not that i wouldnt have wanted them to be there its just maiiba siguro ung takbo ng buong party kung ganun... my attention would've been diverted kung sobrang diverse ng parties invited...
it was the first party i've ever held as a teenager... and yes, a college party is so different from a high school party... the days of merely spinning the bottle = fun is kind of paso na... and booze and grandma's were there to give the party a boost... im not much of a drinker... believe me... i was well allowed and free to drink but i wasnt supposed to... and i wasnt used to it and i didnt like the taste of it much... so i just stuck with the orange juice... imagine how the party would've been if i was drunk... sheesh... sane pa nga lang ako riot na.... what more if i wasn't... i was the nanay of the party... tipong... "guys, tigil na... sobra na"... i dont think i was kj though... i allowed them to have as much fun as possible... and my parents allowed them to drink and smoke and get a bit tipsy... just not too drunk to function and no smoking outside of the house...
imagine such freedom with my mom giving them ashtrays, my aunt giving money to buy hard drinks and my dad buying two cases of beers... were they too liberal and too mapagbigay? no... they trusted my friends as they trusted me... but my friends are different... give me the freedom to drink alcohol and i'd still choose juice... i don't smoke and i sing to have fun... i act drunk even if im not coz ubod naman kasi ako ng kulit... most of my friends are used to drinking and are very much allowed to drink too... some of them do smoke which hurts me... but hey... i told them my side and they didn't listen... my prayers and my care is all i could give them now...
we ate... we danced... we had a drinking session and malamang some got tipsy... -waha!! airon ang comedy mo malasing!!-... disappointment of the night... i guess ung part na the smokers actually left the house without saying kung san sila pupunta at we anxiously waited na bumalik sila... napagsabihan ako ng dad ko nun eh... i shouldn't have let them leave the house coz well... medyo nakainom na rin sila... after that though... i just pretended that nothing happened -something i could actually be good at if i wanted to- and focused na ulit on having fun... ang daming nagmoment at nagusap-usap sa house... and though i didnt get one-on-one talks with everyone... i got to know each a little better...
there are those na kayang magtantsa ng iniinom, those who really abstain from vices, those na madaling mahawa sa pakiki"vice", and those na kaya mag all out join sa kalasingan at etc...
there are those who can dance, those who think they can dance, those who dance pag lasing lang, and ung mga hindi na kahit ano talagang gawin mo di magsasayaw!!
there are those na magaling makisalamuha, those who'd prefer staying in a corner or matatago na lang talaga sa kuwarto, and those who'd be amongst the crowd and with much practice i guess can let themselves wander while speaking...
there are those na magaling magalaga, there are those who are sensitive sa feelings ng iba, there are those na medyo nagiging sunod-sunuran and there are those na me! me! me! lang talaga...
there are those na goody-goods uwi ng maaga, those na todo paalam sa parents to stay, and those na willing magrisk ng pagiging grounded just to stay...
there are those na may strength and courage na kausapin yung talagang kailangan nilang kausapin, those na forever willing to give advices and kayang matantsa who needs it, those na magaling pa rin makipagusap kahit lasing na, those na kakausap muna ng iba to gather up all their courage and advice they can get before nila kausapin ung person na kelngan nila talagang kausapin, there are those na puro paramdam lang and hanggang dun lang muna ang kaya, those na itatago na lang muna sa sarili hangga't walang nakakapansin that they have a problem, and those who'd just stay away...
anyway... some of them slept over some didnt... the girls stayed up til 5 para painumin ng gamot ung isang guy friend namin who wan't feeling good... and 5 ng umaga bumaba kaming 5 na babae para kumutan ung mga kawawang guys na nanginginig na sa ginaw... ag kyut nila tignan... there were 11 of them na nagsisiksikan sa entertainment room namin... and mind you and lalaki at ang tatangkad nung mga yun!! at around 7 most of us were already awake... si janica at joel na lang ata tulog... hehe... some continued their sleep after breakfast and yung iba nagjamming na lang sa lanai... at aroung 9 am... nagaya na magdota yung guys... and nung mga 11... onti na lang kaming nasa bahay... j9, janica and kita na lang... they left ng 1 after sila sunduin ni airon... and my party was over...
diverse kami sobra!! but they are my barkada... and i love them each for who they are... coz they trully are beautiful... both outside and in... and we've been through a lot na together... i thank them for coming and for making my night so memorable... was it bitter sweet because of some unfortunate events? i don't think so... coz even the bitter memories were sweet and we'd all remember them forever... love you guys..
by the way... i'd like to thank my family for allowing us to hold a fracas of a party... for lengthening their patience samin... and for guiding us and letting us learn a lot by letting us be... thanks... abu!!
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
blankly
staring with eyes wide open
people just pass us by unknowingly
on the other side i was wishin
no more quick glimpses
wont settle for a glance
a stare... a lingering stare
i dream as our eyes danced
fleeting images pass my eyes
different faces, enetering view
yet mine was focused on one
and as mine did,i hoped yours were too
a couple of seconds, a minute or two
i just wanted a clearer sight, a clearer view of you
and you stood there directly in front me
we were far away, but i hope our eyes did meet
then you walked away and i headed home
i bring the memory of you just standing there
i walked on with a smile then a thought faded it all
what was i happy about? you probably weren't even aware
you were probably unaware of my hopeful stare
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Thursday, September 14, 2006
...evs...
a.) bored to death and cant find a better way to waste your time... which would be really sad if you asked me...
b.) really close sakin and feel your name would be mentioned somewhere here... and if you are my friend and we've spent some good time lately... your name'd probably be somewhere here...
c.) a dear friend and just want to be totally update... awww... that would be sweet...
here's the next option: most probably a choice that would be voted least likely to be probable... -was that a bit redundant??--
d.) actually interested in getting to know me... just notify me if you're doing some freaky research on walking little teapots...
or...e.) you just have your own reasons...
anyway... evs... i applaude you for wasting your time by seeing how i waste my time...woohoo... !! ... !! ... !! :)
so here goes my seventh installment of me story... 7th out of how many? i have no idea... depends on how long it takes me to forget my password and username... which was the most often if not only reason why i keep on making new blogs...
low-down...
* i got to watch rockestra... i got so tempted to update my blog after watchin that concert... but i didn't...
* i'm not interested with that classmate of mine anymore... pero since wala lang naman... yaan na nating matuwa ako kahit papano...
* may kotse na si airon... and tambayan na namin nila kai, kits, j9, jeyps at fids yung kotse niya... but since he lives so far from me and joel lives nearer... masumasabay ako kay joel... that is if he's going home na rin....
* naka-attend na ko ng ablaze uli after sooo long.... medyo nagbago na xa... pero fun pa rin
* hmmm... sobrang daming tambay moments and feel good tuesdays and fridays na ang dumaan...
* and oh yeah... my bag got slashed and now i own no cellphone and no mp3!! aim't that just dandy?!
this sem is nearly coming to a close... which means its already september... which also means my bestfriend's and kada's -that would be kai, j9 and kams- birthday are near approaching too... and i got no money to buy them gifts! nyarggghhh... plus kai's birthday is sakto sa birthday ni mamu+house blessing namin... homai ryt?... its on the 23rd and i havn't talked to mamu -that's my beloved tita- about it yet...
ina -that's my lola- just came home from boston... my cuzns there almost didn't want to give her back samin... asa noh! lola's girl din kasi ako eh... hihihi...
hmmm... other news? acads? ayun... sill don't know what im failing and what i'd actually be passing... don't think i'll fail naman eh... just not as high as might've expected when the sem started... *sigh*... and now ang barkada namin ay frantically nagaayos ng scheds so that we'd have our breaks at the same time for next sem... you dont know how crucial that could be! hehehe...
shox... all of a sudden im not in the mood to continue narrating evs... nyway... i started this entry last night... wait i take that back... kaninang morning pala kasi 2:30 am na nun... i was in the mood then... but when the clock stroke 3... i had no other choice but to shut the p.c. down... la akong balak masermonan ng ganung oras noh!... nyway... i'll try to update more often... not like anybode cares or evs... i just will... hehe...
may you guys have a fun-freakin-tastic day ahead!!!
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Friday, August 04, 2006
...feel good friday...
So my day started. I've missed two Natsci1 classes already because of waking late, by the way and I had no plans of making more marks for that. I woke up at around 6:45, no thanks to the alarm of my phone that was set to sound at 6:00. SO evidently, it didn't help at all. I went down and ironed my jeans, took a bath, pulled out a shirt and put on my sneakers - which was so dirty by the way- so i just decided to wear sandals. I left the house at around 7:45 and my class was at 830 sa NIGS and the prof closes the doors ng 845. Lo-and-behold, when the jeep got to balara... waaaaaah!! Traffic!! Buti na lang the traffic didn't take as long as the usual and by 825 I arrived in UP. After that came my mad dash from Vinson's to NIGS. Thankfully I arrived at around 840 and was safely seated when he passed around the attendance sheet. It was like our usual classes where he talks about atomic collisions and A-bombs and "bladibladibladiblah!" while we, the students, pretend to laugh, nod once in a while to give him a sort of feeling that we do understand what he's been blabbing about and to pretend to be wise enough to understand such talks when actually our brain cells are popping due to lack of use, and jot down notes when we feel it is needed. Then we heard our most favorite sound, "tenenenen-tenenenen-tenenenenten",yeah like you're hearing me say it right? Anyway, yung nokia tune yun. It's our prof's sort of alarm to tell him that he has to end our VERY interesting discussion. The reaction of the class to this sound is very quick. Just imagine being in a deserted island where you're totally bored to death then suddenly you hear this hellicopter hovering near, that's what that alarm stands for for us. Well, ok exag. un pero basta you get the picture.
After Natsci2 diretso kami ni fidel sa casaa to wait for niki and to have our lunch. When niki arrived we went to AS lobby cause kai was there daw. Kai brought with her their "project" which i helped out in making -watch the game on sunday and you'll see-. After almost finishing it we decided that since we have such a long break ahead why not play DOTA! It has been months since I last played and aminado ako bano na ko dun! Anyway, we went to Philcoa to play. At first ayos pa, lag nga lang pc ko. Pero when we were about to start the second game i wasn't on the mood to play na. Talaga I was excited to be able to play again pero i felt a bit out of place nung grupohan na and since lag din naman pc ko, wag na lang. I decided to just attend PE kahit di aattend si kai. As it turned out Airon had to leave din pala so may kasabay din ako.
I got to my PE class, late as usual. Joel wasn't there and so was Arce and Jason. Nice, out of the 5 xientians in that class I was the only one present. My groupmates were already starting on their 4th to 6th frames when I arrived. So i figured I'll be left again, as usual! This time though, since Kai and Joel weren't around i sat with my group, and yeah since he's there, with him. It was fun actually -buti na lang wala si kai... hehe- I got to talk to him and nakakatuwa nga siya. And it was the first time din that my group didn't leave agad, well except for pat. I was asking them kung sino pupunta sa AS -well, I knew na AS din ang next class niya pero ayaw ko siyang tanongin kung pede akong sumabay, coz DUHH!!!- pero he heard me asking sharon so he asked if I wanted to ride with him to AS. I asked him who else would be joining us and he said yung guy lang na lagi niyang kasama -driver? boy? uncle? i dunno hehe- yun. He said na sa front na daw ako umupo, so ok. Ang kyut niya magdrive. We had a pleasant conversation and well, oo naman "moment" din yun noh! Pero i accept the fact that this would not go anywhere. Anyway, when we reached the parking lot sabi niya mauna na raw ako kasi magpapark pa siya. To tell you the truth, I really had to hold myself back from saying "hindi, ok lang, sabay na tayo" but i don't want to be pushy though, may hiya naman ako... hehehe...
So i went to my next class, still very giddy from the moment. Being that it was only 156 and our class starts at 230, ang onti palang ng tao. So I asked Mat to go down with me to buy a drink. When we got back nadagdagan naman. In class, we had a game, where we won again by the way... hehehe... and Sir talked about St Thomas. SOcsci2 is a fun class, very informative and non-biased. After that class I went sa AS lobby to meet kai and kits again. They were finishing their "project" na and we talked and laughed a lot as usual. Syempre inasar-asar nila ako sa events kanina. After a while we went to the Sunken Garden para lang tumambay, then we went home na rin... that was my day... di pa nga lang siya tapos... dugtungan ko na lang if ever... hehehe... nyt guys!!
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
...not so...
yet everything is just so predictable...
what was before still remained...
yet what did remain has now changed...
a fact feared to confront...
and an dream wished to face...
is reality easier to accept than one's thoughts...
or is it all just too hard to believe...
seeking an object unattainable in truth...
one that exists in being... but roams more freely in the mind...
from where do we get such ideas...
we get it from the existence of which we cannot reach...
to simplify i complicate...
and to complicate i ponder...
which is real... which is not...
and which could i turn to either...
rhetorics and sarcasms, now my friends...
to ask a question that can't be answered...
or to pose one with endless conclusions...
even to answer in a way that'll make you think...
deep as these may sound... really it is shallow...
just jest yourself... and allow it to sink in...
to complicate... i'll simplify...
now what???
----anlabo noh???
ieexplain ko pa ba?? wag na!! pero promise may point yan...from my point of view it is personal - my point of view nga eh diba... bobs bi phim!!-... heheewan... malay ko ba kung may iba keong marelate dyan... hehe
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
...freshie week...
syax... andami na nangyari... kea di ko muna sisimulan sa nangyari kanina... hmmm... flash back... hehe... joke... wag na... la namang nakakatuwang nangyayari eh... wala namang kakwento-kwentong nangyayari eh... ka"jist"an na lang siguro... ayun... ang aking mga kabarkada ang may mga college life na... blockmates... frends... and well... posible nga sigurong kung hahayaan namin ay di na kami maging as close as we are now when we get to second year... -guys... hahayaan ba nating mangyari yun??- sabi nga... the only permanent thing in life is change... syakness noh? akalain mong kolehiyo na talaga... oh yun... buhay kolehiyo...
*orgs? nagsubok akong sumali sa UPTC... kea lang... aking napagtanto na sa ngayon ay tinatamad pa pala ako mag-orgs... as in! hehe...
*block? well, ayos lang naman blockmates ko... pero... uhmmm... ehhh... basta masnakakasama ko pa yung block nikai -si ico, gian, raniel, enzo, jan... etc- hehe... grabe ang kulit nila... pati yun blockmates ni kits -carlos, daisy, allan, kenj... etc- oh diba?
*subj? ok... jists lang...
------philo1 - boring... why? ~naturo na ng socsci prof. ko na asteeg yung topics... ~paikot-ikot lang yung prof... ~ makulit yung kaklase kong isa... ang daming tanong sa buhay! hehehe------math2 - wahaha... tama bang maperfect ko yung HW! hehehe... basic math ba naman kasi... at fun din mga kaklase ko...
------eng1 - affixation pinareview tapos yung test about context clues!! nyway... dun yung pinakasabog ko na klase... fun... fun... fun!!
------natsci1 - waha... 2 na absences ko! dahil sa late ako... nasa isang airconed auditorium kami, 7th row ako and di interactive learning ang nangyayari... kaya malamang... kaantok to the Nth level! hehe
------PE - pe ko? duck pin bowling... venting ko ng asar pag bad day ako! ehehehe
------socsci2 - asteeg si prof aries arugay... talagang mapapaisip ka!
nyway... yun... low-down lang yun... anyway... this past week was our freshmen week... so tulad ng sabi nila sulitin na nga... most important thing in our bag was our form 5... ang aming ticket sa sangkatutak na freebies! libreng ice cream... libreng go nuts... libreng C2... etc... etc... so yun...
tapos... last wednesday nagkaroon ng kung anu-anong happenings sa may sunken garden... L1 -our block- had our picture taken that morning... tapos... me and the other socsci2 students had to attend a lecture sa may triple E auditorium... frankly, it was quite boring... hehe... after that we went back to the sunken garden where there was a midday concert... asteeg din yung bands.. mga tipo din ng sandwich yung andun... un... mini-bonding ng block... nagpaint ball fight kami... waha... ansaya! first tikme ko yun... guys vs girls... 3 vs 6... hehehe... and well, we won! hehe... tinamaan ako sa paa nung 2nd round... pero ok lang... di naman pala ganun kasakit eh... hhehe
aun... tapos nung thursday...-waha... update entry ako lagi!- nakwento ko naman na si spongebob right? grabe... hmmm... it all started nung nasa may parking lot kami... tapos kausap namin block mates ni kai... at biglang napasok sa usapan si spongebob... ang lakas ng pagkakasabi ng best frend ko ng pangalan ng crush ko... tapos... isinunod pa niya yung complete name nung crush ko... tapos... nung nakita ko xa sa may steps... sabi ko pa... in a medyo malakas voice " ayan xa oh... may kausap sa phone... aba... marunong pala tumawid... akala ko hihintayin lang niya yung driver niya na dumaan or buhatin xa..." at grabe!! my stupid mouth talaga!!! biglang tumayo yung guy na nasa likod namin... syax... driver niya pala!! homai talaga... tapos... basta ang obvious namin sobra... syax... ninais ko nang bigla akong magevaporate nung mga oras na un... o dili kaya'y akoy'y nilamon na lamang ng buo ng lupang aking kinatatayuan -waha... dugo... dugo!- mula non... ayaw ko na talaga kay spongebob... bumalik na lang xa sa kanyang pineapple under the sea... -homai... hehe... ang korni!!-
hmmm... nung friday... umaga... uhmmmm... i was two minutes late sa natsci... kea aun... di ako nakapasok...!! tapos? hmmm... bumili ako ng isang UP shirt... tapos... edi yun... PE na... syax ang baba ng score ko!! kakapressure! wahaha!! after PE... socsci... and ang galing may plus 5 kami sa next quiz! kasi akalain mo ba namang ang grupong di nagreview ay nanalo! hehe... tapos nun... biglang nagyaya ang mga tao na pumunta sa bahay ni joel... -si kits, kai, j9 at ako-... kulitan lang kami... tapos... pagkahatid namin kay j9 sa may as... pumunta na kami sa may gym para daw sa pep rally... na 730 pa pala ang start!... so... pumunta na lang kami sa may bahay ng alumni kung san may mahabng pila ng freshies... hmmm... at dahil di ko mahanap ang block ko ay sumama na lang ako sa block ni kai... grabe... kakahilo sa init at dami ng crowd... kea un... umaalis-alis ako sa pila para makakuha ng hangin! hehe... at finally... mga 7 nakapasok na kami... pero promise... walang kwenta pa ung mga unang banda... buti na lang nagyaya ni kits na pumunta na sa pep rally... aun... so pumunta kami sa gym... asteeg naman... bili kami ng zagu... tapos... ay bumalik na rin kami sa may concert... kung san napanood ko ang mga bandang... soapdish, 6cyclemind, dictal license, protein shake, juana, stonefree, rivermaya, pupil, callalily, kjwan, sugarfree, barbie almalbis, spongecola... -may nalimutan pa ba ko?-... nyway... sayang nga at di ok inabutan yung imago, moonstar, mojofly ay kamikaze eh... at sayang din na hanggang rivermaya lang nagstay sila kits... kasi after non hinatid namin sila nila marianne at di ko inabutan ung up dharma down... nyway... ok na rin ung gabi... masaya naman xa... first official concert ko ring napuntahan un as a college student... hehe...
tapos... kahapon... hmmmmm... masasabi ko lang ang gwapo ni superman!! at nawa'y makahaap rin ako ng hero ko... -waha... ang korni ko na! antok lang toh!... hehe-...
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Saturday, July 01, 2006
...aint that college...
well... oo totoo na ito...
i am now a college student... and waaaaaah... the haggardness of it is getting to me na...
i have to walk a 10 minute walk to get to a class... -grrr... math pa!- and after that i have to jog slightly to go to AS for a class right after my math2!Kaya i trully applaude yung mga all pretty and not so haggard looking at the end of the day... kasi promise... ang hirap! hehe
and in times like this... you kinda need something to keep you going... you know... something to inspire you... and no... masmahahaggard ka lang if you use an "UNO goal" as your inspiration... and believe me... di madaling maghanap _if you know what i mean-... and pag nakahanap ka na... what do you do? wala... ipagdasal na sana makita mo xa with in the day... para naman kahit papano mapangiti ka...
it also would give you a reason para magsuklay man lang before you leave the house... kasi kung wala... nothing would keep you from just wearing any shirt and shorts right after you wake up.... having someone to inspire you doesnt mean that you'd have to be his/her syots naman diba? wala lang... yun lang... well... oo sige... di mo mapipigilan ang thought na sana malaman niyang nageexist ka... hehe... lang kwenta naman kasi pagaayos mo diba?...
anyway...
my search so far... waaaah! well... may nahanap na ko... pero... wala eh... lang kwenta... he knows me... and nung simula... may kilig moments na rin ako na di from afar... meaning... i do get to talk to him... pero... wierd thing... when i started to think na xa nga ung small addition to a lot of things that could help me get through my day... wala... ni di na ko makapag-hi... magkakatinginan kami... pero... wala... id rather not say anything... parang feel ko kapag naghi ako... ang papansin ko... i know ang "praning" nung thought... pero ewan ko ba... ganun eh...
nyway... i know i dont need to push it...if he'll be my friend.... he will be... i mean... we shave a sem together pa naman diba? and kung walang mangyari... edi ok lang din... its not like id be graduating after this sem ryt? a lot more would come... plus di naman ako naghahanap ng actual love life at the moment eh... hehe...
sige... alis pa ko eh... mayang gabi na lang uli... au revoir...
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